Fork in the Road

I really didn’t know how to even start this blog, because I have so much I want to say, but here goes. So in the past few years, I have found myself in a very unique situation with my career. Like most millennials I am at a crossroads. I have been in my field for about 8 years (before you ask, I’m not old I just got started in my early 20’s). Healthcare has been such a blessing to me in so many ways. When I first started it gave me a sense of purpose, it gave me a job in an area of science that I have ALWAYS loved. Even back in high school my favorite class was human anatomy. This career, in which I was once so comfortable in, I got to the point that I literally hated it. My level of frustration has practically moved me to tears SEVERAL times. I contemplate quitting almost every time I walk through the door.

But here is the problem…. Healthcare for me has NEVER been a job, it’s ALWAYS been a life’s purpose. So for me to walk away is not that easy. Also my common sense tells me that anytime you do something for as long as I have been in this career, there will be “walls” that you may hit every once in a while. I now realize I am at a point where I can either get over this wall, go around it or let it crush me….

At first I thought my problem was boredom. I was one of those people that jumped the career latter very quickly. In eight years I had written 2 books, (one made the amazon best seller list), became a primary cardiac specialist, branched out into pediatrics, became an educator, and even became a relief supervisor. I have been in critical care taking care of patients my entire career. ICU, ER you name it, I’ve done it. But that wasn’t it. I wasn’t bored, I was just plan tired.

And as badly as I want to quit, there are so many other things in this field that I want to do. I would love to start doing socialized medicine in underserved countries. I have been researching this for almost a year and a half now. Sometimes I think when we are comfortable in certain situations, life makes us uncomfortable to push us to go to higher levels. I was so content and happy, I was on cruise control.

As I was thinking about my life, a revelation of sorts came to me. Sometimes when we get uncomfortable, we think that means it’s time to quit. We think maybe this season in my life is over. But as Easter approaches I really had to think about the life of Jesus and learn a

very important lesson from him. When Jesus knew he had to die on the cross, he was not excited about it at all. In fact he even confessed to God that he didn’t want to do it. He showed me that we can be at the right place, at the right time, doing the right thing and still be uncomfortable. Being uncomfortable can be frustration, fear you name it. However, when Jesus ultimately made the decision to do what his father asked him to do, that is where he found his power. The ability to push pass the pain of his purpose is where he gained all glory. It is with this understanding that I will try to keep going. For overcoming the wall of internal confliction is often the road that gives us the ability to REIGN……